Thawing at the numb

My heart is cold,
My feelings are numb

My breath freezes till you catch it, just in time
I know you feel it too babe, don't play dumb.

You say that you love me,
And for the very first time, I hope it isn't a lie.

I've been searching everywhere,
But all I've found are reasons to cry.

My heart was cold,
But with you I feel alive.

Ending nightmares I was once of told,
Giving me reasons for you to be something I thrive.

I was numb,
I was naive.

I had followed many a trail,
But all it had given me was nothing in return.

I was left numb,
Found I had,
They'd only stayed to watch me burn.

But now;
Dust to ashes,
And ashes to embers,

You relit my flame,
This time I swear to ignore the 'numbers'.

Because,
After being through so much pain,
Somehow.
With you I feel like living once again...



-Yeah well, I was basically just very cold when I wrote this heh bye.

When blood flows

The innocent.
Their smiles, Oh their laughter.

Now from taps, flows blood instead of water,
Wish you'd think selflessly before you so oh effortlessly slaughter.

When screams, fear, and cries exchange the sound of happiness.
When bullets, blood and tears exchange the echo of a future.

Parents lose their blood.
Children get new forever beds...

People lose their friends.
Friends lose their lives...

When teachers lose their students,
Students lose their future...

The cruelty, oh the incivility!
The lies, the inflicting of inability...

We see all.
We feel all.

Want to stand tall,
But surrounded by a bed of thorns,
I'm too precocious,
Too afraid to fall...

Scared, but the voices boom aloud
The screams echo, oh so loud.

When from taps, flows blood instead of water.
Here will be no laughter, 
Now, there remains just slaughter.




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#PeshawarAttack
Those heartless, ruthless disgusting creatures...how could they?

~My condolences and prayers to the departed souls of those amazing people

Perfect's Over-rated

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it.




-Sum 41, Pieces 

Enchanted

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, 
I felt enchanted to meet you.


-T.S

Blow Me Away

You're like a storm,
Blowing me away with a single swoop.

And I'm like a house of cards,
Falling to my knees in seconds.

Band-aids don't fix bullet-holes,
You say sorry just for show,
Live like that and you live with ghosts.

-T.S

Should Move On

Tears streaming down my face,
Unable to make a good enough case.
Although I wish that you could, and make me stay.
How about we hush the screams and you come lay,
Just with me baby.
Asking me if I'll ever come back; well, maybe.

I want to stay,
Please, make me stay.
You ask for another way,
But alas, in this we don't get a say.

I want to cry,
I want to scream and shout,
But I won't.

You want to lie,
You want leave and pout,
And you will.

Because it is not about now,
No, it is about the later.
It is not about the 'ands'
No, it was always about the 'buts'

Life now,
Is it even a life at all?
Nothing left.
All to waste.

I feel so low.
Is this even a feeling at all?
Nothing left to be felt.

The need to move on is so great,
But the want to hold on is as if written in our fate.
Now this life, is just a little too late,
It can't make us move on.
Even though we should.

We should really move on,
We need to go on.

Leave me,
But do not let me go.
Move on for 'us',
But do not forget me.

The need to move on,
Great but not enough.
We should move on,
But let's not.

Just a bunch of Stars.

We are all just a bunch of random stars,
Connected, but apart
Joined together by our undeniable bond of obvious constellations. 

You can pretend that it isn't meant to be,
But you can't stay away from me.

-M5

Numbers just float above the horizon of life;
It's the inner depth of life's wonders,
That matter.

-Bismah Rizwan// My bestfriend said this to comfort me when I failed in Maths lel.

Levels

#StealMyGirl

We want the same things,
We dream the same dreams.

-One Direction

Just another excuse

Love, doesn't exist naturally, it isn't felt. It is created, developed even, over time. We don't feel love because we want to. Actually we don't 'feel' love at all. We want to be loved, so we love others. We aren't selfless beings. We always want something back. We love, to be loved. Love, is just an excuse. It is needed, not wanted.

I am enough

I know I am enough,
Possible to be loved.

 -K.P 

The Bleeding Rose

With petals so red,
And thorns so sharp,
The tears of defeat you had once bled,
And the sweet melody of your voice, humble like the harp.

Protected from the world,
But what saves you from thy own horror?
The twisting lies of fate that have now curled,
But wasn't it done to satisfy thy order?

The blue birds may chirp,
And the demons of your past will forever lurk,
The wind may blow,
And the secrets will forever, always sow.

Like a rose within a bed of thorns,
The fragility of your innocence will strike a pose,
But like the howling of a black crow,
You my dear, have surprisingly hit a new low.





-Yeah so I was lacking inspiration, and I had to write something at that time because it was my literature assignment, so um yeah...

Almost Laughable

The ironic way things always seemed perfectly right,
Before they went tragically wrong,
Right in front of those pretty little eyes.
It was almost laughable…

An Uncomfortable Journey

Even if we look for love,
We won't find it.
Even if we wait for it,
It won't come to us by it self.
And no matter how hard we try,
We can never forget about it.

Love, is a journey,
An uncomfortable one,
Plus a million hurdles.
But the destination? Happiness.
It's worth every one of those pained tears.

-Peace xx

Eraser? No Thanks.

We keep writing and rubbing out our vows.
Is this what we really want?
Or are we just a pair of misguided souls?

I wish I knew, but I'm too scared to know the answer.
I know I'm asking for too much, to have you blindly fall for me.
But what else can I do?

Too scared to lose you, but brave enough to want you.
Don't try erasing all those faults no more, because you and your flaws are what ignite my spirit,
Keep my heart beating for another day, because I know you'll be in it.

...Are we just a stanza meant to be erased?
Don't try to remove the troubles,
No,
This is how we belong.


-Inspired from Demi Lovato's incase...Idk bye.

Let Me Fall

Life is a waterfall

If you try really hard,
You might just be able to create a ripple.

But you will always end up,
Overflown by the resistant current.

Life is a like a waterfall.
And someone day you'll realise,

That you were never at the edge to begin with,
But your hesitancy led you into a trap of your own imagination.

And somewhere near the end
You're going to wish someone had just already let you fall.

So hold on to whatever sanity that is left within you
And pull yourself back up, 
To try and start over.

We may never be able to change the flow of the current.
But that doesn't mean we can't try and go against it.

...Being different, isn't wrong.
After all, we are all just a bunch of misfit rejects,

A couple of people, 
Who've been misguided for too long.

Anchor

You were my anchor, 
The one that kept me sane.

But now that you pulled away,
I'm drifting apart.

Falling into the abyss that is myself
Failing to find you, 
The one to hold me down.

For now I am just an anchor-less boat,
Floating on dead heart beats.

Without a destination in sight,
I sail away.

Till finally I drown,
As I ceased to find my way.

Dull

The world is dull, Not dark.
As dark,
Is in the absence of light.
Yet dull?
Dull, is being in the presence of light,
And choosing to extinguish every fragile bit.

Cookies

I wish I was a cookie.

If people tried to break me,

I would break.

And they would realise their loss.

If they hurt me too much,

I would die in their arms.

Leaving my marks all over them.

If the pain was unbearable,

I would literally be able to crumble away,

into the abyss of death.

Where I remain forever.

You eat me today.

Guilt shall eat you tomorrow, darling.

Just you wait. 

A war's a'coming,

and you're first on my list.

-Chocolate cookies foreva

Chase

Love is confusing, hurtful and ruthless.
Yet everyone still seems to be chasing it,
A chase that is known to no avail.

told you so

Perfection is over rated, you silly little girl.

When will you ever learn?

You should've listened when I had told you so.

Perfection doesn't exist,

But liars do.

Don't get caught up in their eyes,

For they have deceived the ones who now cry.

Be brave you stupid ignorant girl.

If you can't be smart and learn.

Be brave and save yourself.

Although I will say this,

'I told you so.'



Run and don't look back.

Save yourself,

If you can not listen to me young girl.

Reflect.

Baby, you are like a diamond; Shiny as the stars, But a lie like the moon. 

You merely reflected, Never shone.

Why?

It's a miserable, quiet little world
With Time so cruel
And Love so bitter,

Destiny's wickedness,

And Fate being controlled.
Surrounded, but feeling lone.
One, but feeling whole.
Hasn't travelled, but has seen all;
The way we rise. The way we fall.

Has gone, but thy not carried.
All but none.
Little, but still not enough.
Dreamt, but has not tried.
Tried, but not achieved.
If Achieved, never thought any good in dreaming...

Just as sweet, as it is bland.

Sans all spice but not all taste.
The flavour is sour,
But ye' flavour be present.

The ''yes''. The ''no's''
The 'rights'. The 'wrongs'.

All 'ups'. And all 'downs'

Yet remain, forever to no avail.

The question is heard, but not spoken of.
Is thought, but never has it been asked.

Extinguishing hope, forever eternity.
A question been ringing in our ears.
A question remains unheard of.
And thy shall never be courageous enough to ask.
A question left eternal in our minds.
We answered all, But have we?
We conquered all, but did we really?
A question...

The mighty and The great,
And The scrawny and The weak.
Two of the same.
One of the Kinds.
One to be the Other.
With curiosity,
Never our spirits to be rekindled again.
Never the question to be raised again.
Even if heard,

Never thought well to stand and be listened to again.
But, I shall Dare question!

And await till I be answered,
A simple three letter word.
A simple three letter word,
would suffice in asking;

Why?

'Within'

We all have within ourselves; Dark and Light. 

To let the dark spread on, we don't have to even try. 
But when it comes to the light, we need to give it space to shine through and shimmer through our colourless lives. 

Before we come to the point where Darkness has blinded us and raped us of our light. The very light that ignites us...

Beauty Or The Beast?

Dusty winds of insincerity,
Clouded with walls of lies.
Who knows what you say & what you really mean?
Don't think for one second,

That this wipes the slate clean.
Widest smile of all,
Holds the most tears that are yet to fall.
Choking out laughter & Plastering on fake smiles.
Darling, this journey for you
Is yet to go on for miles.

Breaking hearts and Crushing souls.
Like pointy shards pricking on wounded skin.
Like shimmer less glitter trying to sparkle in the absence of light.
Hidden behind the curtain of lies,
Lay beneath a million masked failures,

Yet to be unveiled.
Fiery blazing suns ignite the sky.
Yet they save no one.
Haunt our dreams till we wake up just to cry.
Sleep is forbidden.
Yet so is conscience.

Shifting eyes and short breaths,
What is it that you intend to do next?
What is left yet for you to tear?
Crossing oceans and plunging into the deepest depths.

Like seeing your true self for what you truly fear.
Truths come arise,
Shattering all the lying mirrors and glass.
Ending this pointless charade,
Seeking you through all your camouflage.

For Beauty, was just another Beast.

So Done.

I am so sick of all this constant annoying drama and stupidity. Just so freaking sick of it! I am so done with this shit. I'm done trying to make these friends work. I'm done trying to make other people happy at the cost of my own happiness. I am so done with being nice to those who don't deserve shit. I am done with all this pathetic annoying shit and these stupid hormonal teenagers.
And trust me I mean it. Is it so hard to find decent people these days? Seriously though ugh...
Enough is enough, you know? Enough is enough.

Best friend's birthday party or something

I need to learn how to make good friends, who don't turn into heartless, backstabbing, bitchy parasites. So it was my best friend's birthday party today, if I should even hall her that any more. Basically, the whole time our -her- friends just insulted me. So much fun I tell you. I just find it funny how I had expected something better lol. Oh well, I guess life just sucks like that sometimes. 

This teenager

They say teenage is the best time of your life. No drama. No responsibilities. No commitments. No pressures. No fights. No problems. No sadness. 

They think it's all fun and games. That it's nothing but laughter and bright sunshine.

...These people are wronger than they think.

Teenage life is okay I guess, But then again even when we're adults it's still gonna be like this so why bother complaining.

I'm just another teenage girl in the crowd. I'm just another shadow under the sunlight. It doesn't matter what I'm like or if I'm talented at anything or not. It doesn't matter because people choose to ignore these facts anyway. They choose to torture me about my imperfections, when they should realise by now that perfect doesn't freaking exist.

I'm the one in the corner, faking smiles and choking out laughter as if bile. The one who is bullied? Yeah, that would be me.
Honestly, having your best friends bully you? Yeah, you actually feel worthless and want to die. Life's a bitch, but if you spend it with the right people it becomes a journey you never want to end... I guess it's too bad I didn't find those people. 

This teenager

They say teenage is the best time of your life. No drama. No responsibilities. No commitments. No pressures. No fights. No problems. No sadness. 

They think it's all fun and games. That it's nothing but laughter and bright sunshine.

...These people are wronger than they think.

Teenage life is okay I guess, But then again even when we're adults it's still gonna be like this so why bother complaining.

I'm just another teenage girl in the crowd. I'm just another shadow under the sunlight. It doesn't matter what I'm like or if I'm talented at anything or not. It doesn't matter because people choose to ignore these facts anyway. They choose to torture me about my imperfections, when they should realise by now; perfect doesn't freaking exist.

I'm the one in the corner, faking smiles and choking out laughter as if bile. The one who is bullied? Yeah that would be me.
Honestly, having your best friends bully you? Yeah, you actually feel worthless and want to die. Life's a bitch, but if you spend it with the right people it becomes a journey you never want to end... I guess it's too bad I didn't find those people.