I Just Want To Dance Among The Stars

She sits alone,

Light flickering around the rim of a half empty glass.

She sits there in hopes of drowning the demon that has chosen today to haunt her.

All she ever really wanted, was to dance among the stars.

I wonder, if perhaps my love for you is driven by lust or simply pure intentions.

At some point you'll realise, there is nothing worse than predictability.

Daddy's little drama queen is old enough to bleed now.

-Green Day

The Jerk Theory

You want what you can't have,

So I'm forced to treat you bad.

You're forcing me to be a jerk so you'll want me

-So this is a movie and it's so cute, a little lame at points but it's a classic chick flick so duh but omg ;-;

Controlled illusions

Control is but an illusion darling,
Tonight, let yourself surrender to the most beautiful illusion.

Pour another glass,
Drink every last drop.

It'll give you bravery,
It'll make you daring.

But be careful,
It'll make you want to let go.

Numb away all the pain,
Bleed away all the tears.

Nothing left to feel for,
Nothing left to breath for.

Let yourself go and surrender,
Lose control and begin the rise of an illusion.





(inspired by a dialogue in american horror story season 5 episode 4).

Stained

His name was as if pencilled into my mind.
Even after countless attempts to erase it, traces of his essence still lingered.
They were marks that no force could ever bleach out of my existence.
He was a person I could never forget.
He was a voice always echoing in my heart.

It was as if all I was now, was a paper stained by the dark virtue of his bleeding soul. 

Bitter Irony

She stood there shivering, in wait for him.
She waited there, in hopes of him.
She fell, Believing he'd catch her.

She sacrificed her all, for his promises to be fulfilled.
And he? Well, he ran.
Ran as far as he could, as fast as he could.

He could not bear her fire.
Could not tame her inner phoenix.
He simply did not want what could never truly submit to being his.

His misconception and hers, both combined to make the first known form of bitter irony.
For she had already submitted to his love long ago, and he was too blind to see how much he yearned her flowing through him.




-Idk I was listening to this song which inspired me, most of my writings are not based on personal experience okie.

Please Break Me

She asked him why he found destruction so beautiful and he replied with an answer that would haunt her forever,
"Because it's like breaking hearts, addictive".

She asked him why he found stars so magnificent and he replied with an answer that she made her smile,
"Because unlike humans, they are in control of their allure"

She asked him what he thought of her and his answer left her awestruck yet wanting him more than ever,
"I won't say I love you, because love is a lie. I won't say I'll never leave you, because I don't have control over the future. But, when I think of you I think of how your smile makes me smile, how I have an undying lust for you, how I see you by my side every day of our coming future, how I would die for you in a heartbeat, how I never want to disillusion you, how I want us to be everlasting. But then I think of how much I'd love to be the reason you stayed awake at nights, how much I crave being the only thought swirling in your mind, how much I'd want to have a taste of what destruction would look like on innocence, how much I'd want you to have control of yourself...when I think of you I think of how additively alluring it would be to break you, bit by bit."


Although black holes are fatal, they draw you in. And just like that, she felt herself compelled to be broken by his darkness and enjoy every second of it. 

I was going through my photo albums today and this just really made me smile. It is actually such a strong message and honestly I've seen plenty of young men and women become inspired by this video to better themselves.

Okay, see? This is exactly why my idols are cooler than yours.

Lost.

Make me feel helpless.

Leave me to drown in the rain. 

Make me feel alone.

Leave me to ravel in the pain.

Make me miss you.

Leave me attached to you.

Be my compass,

Let me lose you, to lose myself too.

Forever

I was promised a forever, but all I got was a timed infinity of lies.

Multiple Silences

Blank Canvas

The rest of the world was black and white,
But we were in screaming colour.


-T.S

People are parasites.

We are people.

We are parasites.

We all live a lie

People fixate on ideas, conjuring fantasies of perfect scenarios and sometimes even other people to better reality and so their mind simply taints the truth of the situation for them.

The truth you know? Well, that's your version of it. It's not the truthful reality at all, its just your reality.
We believe what we want to, it never is the way we think or hope it to be, and it never will be. Our refusal to accept this fact is the reason we as humans, conflict; our realities co-exist in a perfectly conflicting turmoil.

I was just thinking and I've realised that it truly is ironic how they say the truth is a bitter thing, being a taste they've never even experienced,

Thus it brings me to my pained conclusion that there is no truth, just endless lies co-existing amidst all our fantasies by the dozen. Which leads me to believe that there is no reality either, not one common reality at least. 

We are all liars. We are all soul sucking, day dreaming, vile, damaged beings, living in our tainted dreams and the funny thing is, we're happy this way.

                                                                                                 

                                                                                                  -Sincerly,

                                                                                                             A liar.

"Lies are like scars on your soul, they destroy you."

Quicksand

He is quicksand,
And I just keep on sinking further and further deeper.
Now, I am simply afraid of the overwhelming feeling of belonging.
This is a place I do not wish to leave, reaching a point where I do not wish to be saved,
I'd gladly sink.

Just A Blackhole

I know this is just a black hole.
And I also know that I've fallen too far.

Paint.

He was like a damaged canvas,
Making my colours darken with every stroke.

Dear Diary,

Occasionally it so happens that I lose sight of who I really am, who I need to be, and who I might become in the given circumstances. Sometimes I don't think about every possible aspect of my actions, or what effects they could have on me, my life, or the people I love. 

There are times when I am irrevocably, unforgivably selfish. And believe me, selfishness always leads to reckless behaviour, and really, REALLY bad decisions with the added horribly clouded judgement and messed up feelings.
But for some reason, no matter how many times I climb out of the pit called 'selfishness', I somehow always find my way back, and I have come to realise, that I like it that way. And trust me when I say that I truly do hate liking it, but I do. 

Sometimes that makes me wonder,
If evil was born, or if good just created it out of plain reactionary behaviour?

Treacherous

Put your lips close to mine,
As long as they don't touch

Out of focus are the eyes,
Until the gravity is too much.







-TS, treacherous 

He had once said, 'We're ghosts; we're ageless'...

Burn Down

Shall we burn together,
You and I?
Or shall we leave it all up destiny?

Love Of Worth.

I used to obsess over living,
Now I obsess only over you.

I used to crave loving,
Now I crave only for you to love me.

I used to avoid over thinking,
Now I avoid only the thoughts not about you.

I used to dream about countless journeys,
Now I dream about you being my only destination.

I used to thrive in colour,
Now all I thrive is you to colour my darkness.

I used to be afraid of failing,
Now all I fear is not trying by your side.

I used to be like broken glass, cracked but whole,
Now all I am with you, is simply complete.

I used to be a mystery yet to unfold,
Now all I am is story barely unknown.

I used to be half,
But now, I am whole.

I used to be alot of things,
But none of them were of worth, compared to being next to you.








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The Liar.

We say we are human,

We say we are flawed.

We are our armour.

We are our own shield and sword.

We know that we lie. 

We know, but we try not to be caught. 

We pretend for some time,

But sometimes we just give up.

We scream and we shout,

Hoping just maybe, we'll be heard in the crowd. 

When the world is nothing but noise,

We need someone to hear us without being loud.

We need the joy, 

We owe ourselves the pleasure. 

But time is cruel to us and so is fate,

We tell ourselves we want what we desire.

We say we are human,

We know that we lie.

We pretend for sometime,

Continuing to commit the same crime. 

We are but demons. 

We are but simply stardust.

Soullessly we live an eternity,

Just to watch all that is pretty, rust.

We are our armour, 

But we fail, submitting to lust. 

We know that we lie ruthlessly,

We know that we are but parasites, living endlessly.

But what we want isn't what we truly desire.

We want something pretty, simply wanting to be admired.

You need me

And I want you.

You have my heart.

And I have your soul.

Yet we are still humans.

We are known to lie...

Just Lost Stars

But are we all just lost stars,
Trying to light up the dark?



-M5

I Miss You

Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head.
I miss you,

I MISS YOU.

-Blink 182

Can't Even Feel

I can't see if tomorrow is coming on,
I can't even hear myself scream,
Can't even feel a thing.

Swept Away

I can't decide if it's a choice,
Getting swept away....




-T.S

Treacherous

This hope is treacherous,
This daydream is dangerous.

This road is treacherous,
But I, I like it.



-T.S

Heartbroken, and proud.

Heartbreak is our national anthem,
We sing it proudly.

-Taylor Swift

Sparks

My heart forever cold,
My feelings were numb.

Turned my ashes to embers,
And watched me burn.

I was haunted.

I was only a haunted vessel,
My friends, the forever whispers now.

It was like a nightmare, without sleeping,
A constant siren, without listening,

It was simply a life, barely worth living.



-This was a part of an essay I once wrote, so yeah.